Two hearts. One Love. That's us.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 02:26:48 GMT

Staying home all week is killing me.
I really don't know what to do with myself.
I went shopping today which was good.
I don't understand why I'm allowed to shop and not go to school though.
WEIRD.

Julia, Christina and Emily visited me today. =D
I love them. Jenna couldn't come =[
BUT she's coming a different day.
I don't know what I would do without them, I'm happy things have changed to be honest.
And if you're trying to hurt my feelings, you're not, at all. The feelings mutual.

KTHANKSBYE.

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 22:31:50 GMT

I can't really remember the last time I updated, it's been a really long time though. I randomly had the urge to make an entry in this thing. So many things have changed this year, it's actually pretty ridiculous. Some for the better, some for the worse. I hate not being able to control change, like I guess you could somehow, but life leads you the way it wants. I like where I am now. I have new friends, playing a sport I love, and i'm less stressed out.

This past week was pretty rough, i'm not gonna lie. My eye started being all weird a couple weeks ago. So I thought it was getting better, when it really wasn't. On Friday my mom took me to the doctors since it started to really bother me. Turns out I have an ulcer on my cornia, I guess its the worst eye condition you can have and 1 in a million people get it. The doctor also said if I didn't respond to treatment I could go blind in that eye. It was really overwhelming having all this thrown on me at once. The minute we left the office I started balling, I think I needed a good cry, anyways. Now i'm taking 4 medications every hour and I can't go to school this week. I'm not complaining about the school part, but I'm really going to miss volleyball. It really sucks when you get hurt the second things finally start to get good. If i'm lucky I will be able to play in a weekish. Until then life will suck.

ANYWAYSS..I like a new boy. I have a good feeling about this one. He's probably the nicest person I have ever met in my life. I just need to be patient and not get scared because that's usually my problem. I don't know, we'll see what happens =]

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 21:22:54 GMT

K so I got a random urge to update.
Summer has been amazing so far. I've realized a lot of new things.

For example:
I realized how hard it is to let go of someone who once genuinely cared about you.
I realized how hard it is to make yourself have certain feelings about a person even though your real ones are the total opposite.
I hate realizing that I want something I can't have, or I once had it, then I screwed up and it's gone.
I hate realizing that the saying "You never know how much you'll miss something until it's gone" is completely true.
I hate realizing it was all my fault that it didn't work out.
I love realizing my friends will always be there for me.

That felt good to finally get that out.

On a better note, here are some incredible things I have done this summer =]
+ Sleepovers with the J's.
+ Parties.
+ Tanning.
+ Onset with J's and O's.♥
+ Meeting new people I will never forget.
+ Cape with the Bevs.
+ New Hampshire with Kelsey.

And here's stuff to look forward to:
+ New Hampshire again.
+ 48 HOUR REUNION.♥
+ Basketball camps.
+ Volleyball.
+ Newport.
+ More sleepovers/parties.
+ Seeing people I haven't seen all summer.
+ Beaching it.
+ Hopefully some concerts. =]

YAY. I LOVE SUMMER. THE END.♥

Sat, 27 May 2006 21:41:28 GMT

Hmm this weekend has been fun =] Softball ended this week too, it made my whole week a whole lot better.

K so last week i met a kid and he looked exactly like Adam Brody. He even acted like Seth Cohen. I fell in love for basically, 10 minutes.

Today i went to basketball. We won one game which was good. Then we came home and my mom got suprised with her new convertible. I took a ride in it, its pretty sweet.

Hm, tonight i don't know what im doing. I might go out but if i don't i wont care that much because i kind of just want to watch a movie or something. I have been getting in these moods a lot lately where i just want to relax and rather not do anything. I can't really explain it since im so bad at explaining stuff in writing.

I also noticed that i need to stop worring about little things that bother me. I get annoyed really easily. I haven't been meaning to but, lately i have been really moody towards my whole family, basically. I will do it and then feel really bad afterwards, but then i just don't apologize because i dont like giving in. Ah its been on my mind lately thats why i thought i would write it. Also i havent hung out with my best friends in ever. We never see each other anymore and i miss them A LOT.

Sun, 21 May 2006 23:56:04 GMT

Hm, i almost NEVER update this thing. Right now i'm in the mood though. This weekend was fun. I went to prom and danced with my bests. I met some new people which was a good time =] Later on i slept over Julias with Jenna and Christina. I love them, a lot. Saturday we all just hung out all day, jammed out to music, you know how it is. Saturday night i didn't end up going out, my parents were being annoying and i was in one of those moods where i just want to be alone. It wasn't a bad mood or anything, I just like spending time with myself sometimes. It could be weird, but i could care less. Today i was supposed to go shopping, but that didnt work out. I ended up watching Brokeback Mountain. I really didn't know what i was getting myself into when i started watching it. You know what i hate? When parents walk in at awkward parts of movies. Yeaaa. Just now i was eating dinner and i could not stop smiling for no reason at all. My family thinks im insane. I also couldn't stop laughing for no reason. This has happened a lot to me lately. Weird. I'm thinking maybe tonight i won't procrastinate and start working on things i need to do soon? Probably not, but it's nice to be positive.

Mon, 01 May 2006 02:26:41 GMT

Hmm, ok so this week went by WICKED fast. It was so good. I dont really remember anything that happened. I had basketball and softball, the usual. This weekend was fun =] It felt like summer because it was sooo warm out. I was a loser and tanned on the roof. Friday Maureen and Kelsey came over. We talked and laughed a lot. It was fun, i love them. Kelsey slept over and we got Dunkin Donuts in the morning. It pretty much made my day that much better. Later on i went to Chris' house with some other people. It was a lot of fun. After i slept over Maesies with Elise and Stef. I passed out a couple times, i was so tired. In the morning we had pancakes, my favoriteee.♥ Then the moms picked me up and i rested when i got home. Tomorrow is monday =[ Blahh. Only 5 more days til the weekend. YESAH.

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 02:00:48 GMT

Ew its the last night of vacation =[ Luckily this one didnt fly by though. Yesterday Kelsey and Cass slept over =] Kelsey requested this update. We went to Uno's, it was goood. Had probably most awkward moment ever, so shady. Anyways, we left there and headed to Friendlys and got ice cream. That was goood too. We headed back to my house after and watched Stepmom and talked. I love them, end of story. Today i had a tournament in Sturbridge. Random, but we actually didnt do that bad. We lost the second game by a lot but we played some beasts.

Later we headed to Friendlys with the team. I go out to eat so much lately, its really not healthy. It was a fun time, they are so funny. I realized that i didnt get to hang out with maureen all vacation =0 I miss her and love her so that needs to change. I also didnt get to see Julia which is ridiculousss. Other than that i hung out with pretty much all my friends. Ah, i dont want vacation to enddd! Tomorrow i think im going out with the moms then going to my tournament. K im bouncinn.

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 03:10:17 GMT

Hmm ok vacation has been good. =] I managed to make time this week to hang out with different people even with sports and everything. That doesnt happen often. The other day i slept over Kelseys with Kara and Melissa. It was a good time. Me and Kara had a really good time with the camera. Captured some scary shots. Yesterday i had a softball game and we won. It was nice because nothing got hit to me haha. After the game my neck was messed up so i didnt go to basketball. Then later i went to Chilis with Allie,Emily and Lexi. We shopped for a bit then i called my dad to pick me up because my neck was hurting again =/ I got home and rested and watched the Red Sox.
Today i had practice at 10. It was SO hot out, i was dying but i got through it. When i got home i tanned outside on the roof haha. I left for my basketball clinic then had regular practice. I have decided that sports kick my ass. I do way too much and its stressful. I want to take a break but i know if i do i will regret it. I should probably head to bed because i have a game at 11 tomorrow. OK,PEACE♥

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:55:52 GMT

K so i havent updated in quite a whilee. I have been pretty busy. Its vacation =] Enough said. Thursday i slept over katys which was good since i haven't hung out with her in a while. Friday i went shopping a bunch and we got luke his tux for ring dance. Later on i slept over Karas. So lets talk about the fact that it was pouring out and we couldnt do our annual bike ride =[ We made the most of it though and we got dropped off at the plaza at like 8. Shady, but we were hungry. We walked around a bunch because we are indecisive x 9459934. We ended up going to Papa Gino's. Some creeper thought he was being sneaky by looking at us through the reflection on the window, but we definitley saw him. It was funny. After we decided to walk to Shaws? I dont know why i go along with her insane ideas. We chased her brother down when he came to pick us up. Literally chased him down. We ran in a complete circle around the parking lot trailing the car in full sprint. O man it was quite the scene. ANYWAYS. Saturday we went bike riding finally. Played some badmitton, basketball and baseball too. O AND. We got bertuccis salano pizza. It was amazing. I suggest you try it, your whole life will be changed.

Saturday night Katy and her family came over. We watched the movie Death Tunnel. Scariest movie i have ever seen in a gross/creepy way. After they left and i did some ipod stuff. Its so weird how time flies by so fast. It seemed like i was only on the computer for like 10 minutes and all of a sudden it was 2 in the morning. Then i listened to music and went to bed.

EASTER.
Today was enjoyable. =] I love Easter. It just has some kind of feeling that i like. Kinda weird, but yeah. We did our annual egg hunt when we woke up. I completely schooled Hillary. Yes, i did just say schooled. There was 50$ in two of the eggs =0 Breakfast was wicked good. After we opened our Easter baskets. I got candy, makeup and some American Eagle clothes. I also cashed out with $75 in the eggs. There has to be some sort of record for that. Yes, no? Not too shabby for a minor holiday. People came over later and i took some excellent pictures. Now im here and im thinking i might go to bed soon because im really tired.

YAY FOR WICKED LONG ENTRIES THAT EXPLAIN EVERY DETAIL OF MY WEEKEND.♥

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 00:05:48 GMT

K so the weekend is over =[ so disappointing. Friday night i went out with Julia,Jenna,Allie and Rachel. It was a good time. We went to Chili's and had a hott waiter. Too bad he was slightly gay. We got Jenna and Julia ice cream for their bdays. Afterwards we walked around, captured some quality pictures. I couldn't sleep over Julias after so i went home.

Saturday morning i woke up at 6:30 for basketball at Dana Baros. I love mornings before tournaments because it always means Dunkin' Donuts =] Kinda pathetic, but hey, i like my food. We won 1 game, i think? The last game got cancelled because the floor was wicked slippery so that sucked. The teams we played were pretty hard. When i got home i headed to Karas with Kelsey. We got there and talked and listened to music, the usual. Then we came up with the brilliant idea of walking to Shaws. Eventually that turned into bike riding which Kelsey wasn't too thrilled about. "Guys, please don't make me." hahaha♥ Quality. We looked like complete fools with our nice mittens on. It was all worth it though because we picked up some pringles, rice krispies and this amazing cereal i have been looking for since i was like, 5. We got home and ate and i took the rest of that cereal home with me. I went to bed around 10:30ish.

Sunday i had yet another full day of games. We didnt win any today, but it was alright. More hard teams. I slept for like 3 hours when i got home, i was cashed. AH April Vacation is soon =] =] =] The smileys could go on...

I think im having a sleepover with the basketball girls (Emily,Elena & Katy) sooon. A full night of basketball and basketball movies. I really cant think of anything better. SO GOOOD.

O yea, and today we lost our softball game. K thats it.

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 02:12:32 GMT

Hmm, first off i would like to say im pretty proud of myself for updating like almost everyday. But anyways, today was pretty good. I got a good grade in spanish which is a shocker, i think mrs.kaeli might just dislike me now, not hate me like she used to. History quiz was excellent. Rojee ended up giving in and gave us a word bank. I did pretty good on the english quiz, people around me are obnoxious and obscene, but i love it. Softball was outside today and it wasn't that bad. I used my new batting gloves =]

You know what i love? When people just completely stop talking to you, without saying anything or having a reason. I mean hey, if your not gonna talk to me ever again, maybe at least a goodbye would be nice? Its not like i care too much though because the person was dumb in the first place even though i didnt realize it, but a warning would have made the situation better. Did this person not think i would notice when they used to talk to me everyday? I really don't get people sometimes. I guess i should stop overanalyzing it since it really doesnt matter to me.

ok MOVING ONN. tomorrows friday =] yay.♥

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 21:44:12 GMT

Hmm today has been a pretty good week :) Im getting over a lot of things which is amazing. Yhis weekend i had a jaguars sleepover in Belmont and that was a lot of fun! We ate a ton like always and watched Valentine, probably one of my favorite scary movies EVER. I seriously have probably seen it over 20 times. I got like no sleep and felt miserable but it was worth it. In the morning we went to IHOP and it was so so good♥ Then after we watched Fear.com and we leftt. Good weekend.

Yesterday was alright,instead of a 53 on my spanish test she messed up and i got a 59.=0 "Son of a bitshh" hahaha♥

Today everybody got checked for this threat thing so we missed more of class. It was maureens birthday and i made her an amazing sign and some pictures. I like my new seat in math, for many reasons ;) I laugh so much in that class and luckily mr nelson doesnt get too mad. It was snowing today and that upset me, A LOT. I want warm weather. Softball was inside again, its only fun because of the people that i do it with, which is kinda pathetic, but i love it.

Ahh this weekend i have my first basketball tournament. Im real excited but nervous too because college coaches will be there. I guess thats good and bad at the same time?

I have decided im not gonna let the little things bother me anymore. Im also tired of being so concerned with guys and stuff like that. From now on, whatever happens, happens. If it's meant to be then it will all play out. Im so happy to be moving on from, EVERYTHING. I used to say it before, but this time i really feel that way and it feels good. This weekend im partying with julia and its going to be amazing =]

ALSO i realized the song Runaway Train by Soul Asylum never fails to put me in a good mood. I LOVE IT.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 22:39:09 GMT

hmm the last few days have been goood =] softball has been alright, i ended up making varsity which im pretty happy about but that means i wont be with maureen,elizabeth and sara which upsets me a lot. friday some people came over and it was a good time.

today i went to practice at 8:30 which was death. we worked on hitting a bunch which is good because i totally forget how to hit like i used to. basically i just hung around all day and watched some basketball games. later on im going out so that should be funn. tomorrow i have to wake up super early to go bridgewater for some showcase college basketball thing. im reallll nervous but hopefully it goes well =]

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 23:14:29 GMT

today was pretty crappy in general. i really dont have a reason, but it just was. i realized that i really dont try at all in school, which kinda scares me. whenever i get a really bad grade i just laugh which is probably not the best thing to do. so i decided im going to try harder and actually care for once. i have said this before but im really going to try and make it happen this time. ill probably start by doing my homework tonight,which is something that doesnt usually happen.

anywayss today was day 3 of tryouts. it went pretty well. we only went outside for a little bit today which made it much better. i found out i cant bunt for my liiife. mr dwyer said that i couldnt bunt a beach ball if i tried. he loves me =] i hung out with maureen,elizabeth, sara b and patrice most of the time and we watched the boys tryouts for a bit.

im really in the mood to go out to eat. which is exciting because i am tonight. its weird that im actually happy im going to get to talk to my family for like a couple hours without having to go to sports, or whatever. i used to think i was one of those people that didnt like spending time with my family, but i actually am which is good, i guess? now im leaving for applebees =] yummmm.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 01:45:16 GMT

k maureen fixed this baby up for me once again ;) i think this might actually stay for a while now since i enjoy updating. ok so i deleted all of my entries from 295683 years ago because they were so incredibly embarassing. some of the stuff i said was ridiculouss. but then again i will probably look back on this entry in a while and think the same exact thing.

softball tryouts were today. they were alright, its annoying how softball is such a joke in medway though. i hope i can still do it with basketball and everything, not for the softball part but to see sara,maureen,elizabeth and julia a lott cause i love them and softball last year was way too much fun.

i feel like i need a BIG change in my life right now. im so bored and sick of doing the same old thing so hopefully something exciting will happen in the next few days/week. it probably wont, but its nice to try and keep my hopes up.

K PE@CEE♥